I really cannot handle the bullshit they keep on doing.
I swear they keep on doing worse and worse shit. I was crying again in my room. And my father came in. THE USUAL "stop crying. I got it worse. I dont have friends and I can handle it". Yeah??? Go fucking kill yourself balding ass bitch. You were always the fucking demon in this family. Threatening to kick us out of the house. Beating me up. Screaming at me. Bitch you were always the fucking bad one here. Me and my mother? Well fuck her too. She is fucking me up mentally more. Both of them dont give a flying fuck if Im alive or not. And they are actively doing everything to make me kill myself. Not a single fucking drop of kindness in their words. They only use me as a punching bag. I was always the fucking dissappointment they wanted to spill their hate out on.
Since I was 13 I always wished they would die. Now that Im older? I would actually handle it all no problem. I would just probably sell the house or rent it out to my friends. I can still pay for it with my salary. Point being. They are a waste of resources and they keep on JUST FUCKING DESTROYING ME MENTALLY. I cannot have a singular fucking day of a break. They always have to make it worse. With everything. They think this age is all fucking flowers and butterflies. Whatever the saying goes. They think I am living my peak life. While I cry everyday alone in this fucking hellhole. Not a fucking drop of actual compassion and support. "stop crying" "you just always cry" "Youre lazy" "do something" "you can be alone" "oh that friend? We didnt like them anyway"
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND DIE. ALL MY LIFE PROBLEMS ARE BECAUSE OF YOU TWO. YOU ARE THE ONES WHO KEPT LOCKING ME IN MY ROOM AND BEATING ME UP WITH A FUCKING LEATHER BELT FOR NOT OPENING A FUCKING BOOK. I WAS STUDYING UNTIL 3AM AS A FUCKING 15 YEAR OLD BECAUSE A FUCKING 3 ON A MATHS TEST WAS TOO LOW FOR YOU. YOU TOOK AWAY EVERYTHING THEN. AND EVEN WHEN I HAD A SPARE PHONE??? THAT BITCH OF A MOTHER CALLED THE INTERNET PROVIDER TO CUT OFF THE INTERNET FROM OUR HOUSE. SHE KEPT LOCKING ME IN MY ROOM WITHOUT WATER OR FOOD UNTIL I WAS ABLE TO TELL THE WHOLE BIOLOGY BOOK FROM MEMORY. AND EVEN ENGLISH. THE ONLY SUBJECT I WAS GOOD AT??????? THEY SCREAMED AT ME IF I GOT 4 ON ANY OF THE TESTS THERE. I WAS REACHING AS HIGH AS I COULD. AND THEY STILL BEAT ME UP. AND TODAY THEY HAVE THE FUCKING NERVES TO TELL ME YOU SHOULD BE GLAD WE WERE THIS HARSH CUZ YOU ACTUALLY ACHIEVED SOMETHING. WE SHOULD DO THAT MORE SO YOU WOULD BE AN EMBARASSMENT. please. fucking die.
and like I mentioned last time??? its just the tip of the iceberg of what they did. Even when I tried to kill myself??? They told me to apologize for it and be better cuz Im a bitch for that. Sincerely, please. Get off my fucking head and die so I could lead a better life. I wanna take all the stuff I would get in the fucking "spadek" and sell most of it.
Goblin, reporting. IT'S A FUCKING INFERNO ON EARTH.