Goblin reporting while sober!
Well today I actually posted the blog on my IG so more people should see it. Idk if its for the better or for the worse. Either way - shit is turning into an actual fight with my physical help. I can barely function daily. So I made a post today at like 1am. Not its 6pm and I got back from work. And HOLY FUCK something is really wrong with my physical health. With every day I keep spitting out more and more blood. I cannot stand straight cuz Im so dizzy 24/7. The whole world keeps spinning. I keep on (almost) losing conciousnes. When I slightly turn my eyes to the side, I feel like my whole body is turning off. My chest feels heavy as fuck. Im seeing double. I dont know where I am or who I am. I keep shaking the whole day. I dont know if its the side effects of withdrawal from anti depressants. But probably not because I felt like that long before that. I felt like that even before my ex got me into drugs.
I can barely sleep even with my meds, I cannot spell out simple words. I just feel like I am actually fucking decaying. I feel like I might need to be hospitalized soon. Like seriously, I dont know whats wrong. It all got WAAAAYYYY worse when I stopped taking my anti depressants. Please have fucking mercy on me.
And also adding to the previous post. Yeah its true, I am taking drugs. My ex got me into this shit and I fell so fucking hard into that. It started off easy. And now Im taking hard drugs which are making all the physical symptoms better???? How the actual fuck???? Ehhh I feel like Im losing control of everything. I am sober right now while writing this entry and holy shit its all clearer to think. But its way worse physically.
I fucked up so much...
I will probably update this later today too
Goblin, reporting. Await updates. Over!